I look forward to going home every night. My job is OK, but I much prefer being at home with Megumi.
A few times recently on that short walk from the station to our house it has really hit home that Rosie is no longer with us. I used to go home, and she would often be sleeping already. Usually I would immediately go upstairs and just take a look at her, sleeping peacefully. Now and then I would eat dinner first, and then go and 'check on her' after eating. Sometimes she would be still awake, so I could play with her a little before dinner.
Recently, as I walk back from the station, I have the mixed emotions of looking forward to seeing Megumi, and being upset because Rosie is not there with her, waiting for Daddy to come home. At the weekend, Megumi and I went out shopping. I almost started to get Rosie's buggy ready before remembering that she would not be coming with us.
Megumi quickly realised what was upsetting me, and kindly said "she's coming with us - she's here", pointing to her heart and then mine.